Shockingly this site is still here, and I am grateful for that. I need to redo this whole thing, so much has happened since the last time I was on this site. So if you’re reading this and actually want to read it more, bear with me. kthx.

I should be getting ready to go to Target. I should be cleaning up. I should not be laying here with the laptop on top of me, but I don’t feel like doing what I should be doing.

Baby girl (yes it’s another girl!) is due 10 weeks from tomorrow. My last day of work is about 6 weeks from tomorrow, and I am seriously counting down the days. This pregnancy is full of so many aches and pains, especially at work, I can’t wait til June. We still don’t have a name picked out for her yet, we have a list of a few names though. The plan so far is to take the list with us to the hospital and decide after she’s born.

I’m going to have 3 kids. Can you believe it? Three! I still can’t believe it sometimes. I think about it and I get nervous.

Pregnancy brain sucks, did you know that? I totally just forgot everything I was going to write about when I stopped to look at a story on the news. Oops. Guess it’s time to go do what I should be doing huh?

Tomorrow is the big day aka anatomy ultrasound day. *shriek* I’m uber excited. I cannot wait to finally settle the “sex debate” lol. I’ve been saying girl, he’s been saying boy. The Chinese sex predictor chart thingy says boy. I was right the last 2 times and so was the chart, who will be right this time? I’ll let you know tomorrow.

Really not too much going on lately. I can’t believe how long it’s been since I posted, it’s ridiculous. I know nobody visits, but I should still post. For me, so I can have something to look back on and say “oh em gee I said what?!”

I’m taking my week vacation next month, the 9th-15th. JJ’s 3rd birthday is the 15th, so we’re taking him to Sea World the weekend before instead of having a party. What makes that even more awesome is we’ll all be getting passes for the rest of the year PLUS JJ is still free when we go because he’s still 2. I get paid the day before my vacation starts too, I don’t think I could have planned it better.

Right now I’m baking Knock You Naked Brownies for Tiffany at work because today is her last day. And she’s been bugging for these brownies for months now, so I figured it’s the least I could do for her.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving! I’m super excited. Today is just doing the last of cleaning and then some prepping for tomorrow. I plan on chopping all the veggies I’m going to need and also make the pumpkin pie and cranberry sauce.

We got a rottweiler puppy last Tuesday. He’s super cute, only 2 months old. His name is Patron. No, not because of the tequila. Originally Javy wanted to name him The Boss, but decided Patron sounded better. My only problem is the house stinks when he pees somewhere and we don’t find it right away. Plus he stinks because he walks thru it like nothing, not a very pleasant thing for a pregnant women to smell. Hopefully tomorrow is okay with the smells. I used my febreze on the couchs today, I’m going to use it tomorrow too, plus Javy is giving Patron a bath while I’m at work tonight.

Well time to stop procrastinating and get finished with my to do list.

I recently ordered something from eden fantasys. Their customer service is pretty awesome, when I had a question it was answered quickly. Also I received my package within days. The package didn’t look out of the ordinary either so it wasn’t like someone could see it and be like OMG. I would totally tell you how much I enjoyed the toy I received, but sadly I can’t yet. I need batteries lol. Plus I was having trouble with my pregnancy. Yes I am still pregnant, what I thought was a miscarriage actually wasn’t. Everything and everyone (baby and I) are fine. But I will let you know how it goes with the toy when I get the chance. I can say it looks fun lol.

I have decided that I want to go back to being a stay at home mom. Or maybe I just need a different job with “normal” hours. I hate working late night hours and never really having time to work on my hobbies or just do what I want to do. I’m always sleeping late, clean when I wake up and then it’s time to pick up Serena. When we get home I clean a little more, help Serena with homework, cook dinner, eat, get ready for work and proceed to start the circle all over again. I told Javy already that I want to stay at home again and he told me he never really wanted me to work (macho ego having to provide for his family you know lol). What sucks is that for that to happen we need to move, again, into an apartment. I don’t mind apartments too much, I just hate moving. So it’s going to be a couple months at least before my dream is reality.

What brought this on you may ask. Well I was pregnant, I took 2 home tests and an “official” one at planned parenthood, all of which said yes you are pregnant. I went to orientation at the local clinic for prenatal care last Monday. That day I had been having brown spotting, not much, butt nothing to be concerned with. The next couple days the spotting turned pink and then red, bright red. By Thursday it was heavy enough I needed to wear a pad, plus I was cramping bad. I don’t like the ER so I never went, but I can only assume that I miscarried. I mean how could the baby survive all this bleeding and cramping? I’m still bleeding right now in fact. Anyways the point of this story is I decided I don’t want more kids, since this has happened a couple of times now always at home, no doctor needed to tell me what I already know. On top of not wanting to try for more babies, I decided to focus a little more on me. I need to lose weight and eat healthier. I also want to do more of what I want to do, for example stay home with my family, scrapbooking (JJ’s book has like 1 page), work on this site, get better with my cooking and baking (I love doing both), all in all just love my life more. My life sucks being overweight and working at Taco Bell, and I’m tired of it. I’m 27 years old and I deserve to be happy.

A full bodied parakeet barked

Back to work tonight, joy. I get to tell everyone there the big news. I’m not sure if I can say anything here yet, so I won’t lol.

Lately I have been tired as hell. I know I work late and get up early, but I’m more tired than before. If allowed I will sleep past 12 on Saturday and Sundays because there’s no reason for me to get up early.

Serena turned 6 last week. We took her to the zoo, ignoring the fact that when we woke up it was raining. Raining. Seriously. The week before we in the 100s, wtf? Whatever. We’re going, that was my first statement of the morning. So we went to the zoo, walked everywhere, saw everything. Ate overpriced food, had fun. After that it was time for Back to School Night at her school. We went to her classroom, met the teacher, rather Javy met her since I already see and talk to her everyday. When that was over we picked up 2 of the cousins and headed to Chuck E Cheese’s. All in all it was an awesome day for a 6th birthday. Serena had fun, that’s all that matters.

Right now I’m watching the Chargers game and crossing my fingers in my mind that I get Halloween off. I requested it off last month, but there’s a note posted saying that there are a lot of requests for that day. Why? I don’t know, 95% of the people I work with don’t have kids to take trick-or-treating. Plus it’s a Sunday, so I highly doubt there are parties that day. Whatever, I should get the day off…I hope.

I am thisclose to going back to college next semester. My next step is to make an appointment with a counselor so they can fill out part of my petition so I can go back. Due to my stupidity in the past I have to petition be able to go back to this school. I already have my BOGFW (board of governors fee waiver) which is awesome so I don’t have to pay the twenty something dollars per unit.

Other than that life is pretty much the same around here.

It’s my 27th birthday today. I’m getting old, but I don’t feel it, which I guess is the important thing right? I keep forgetting how old I am whenever someone asks me my age lol. Losing my memory already, proving I’m getting old.

Nothing special today. I have to work tonight, I didn’t want to request the day off since I have quite a few days I need to request. Like Serena’s birthday for example. We’re taking her to the zoo since we have 4 free tickets we need to use by the end of the year.

In other news I have decided that next semester I am returning to school. I just have to decide which community college I want to go to. I have about a $500 scholarshare I have to use by my 30th birthday. That should get me 2 semesters worth, I’m hoping. This time I am going to suffer thru all the classes I have to take, but don’t want to. I am determined to get my degree and wave ba-bye to taco hell.